I LOVE YOU

But I hate me. How’s it even possible ? The hidden person in my heart is bitter, broken & discouraged. I know Jesus cares but I don’t know how to believe. This blog, like me is bi-polar. There, I admit it. I am Eryka.

Brace, Let

I received a gift yesterday. A lovely little Pearl inside an oyster and a charm that reads “I’m enough.” This was obviously God and my friend reminding me that I am enough. Okay. I am enough… but for what? For who? When do I begin to want and desire and appreciate me? I try. It…

3 years…

Wasted. I slept with a liar. He promised much, but delivered nothing. We had sex and the same man that told me I was his soulmate called me delusional and hard to handle. I was easy to fuck, excuse my English, but I’m too hard to love. I wasn’t worth waiting for in his opinion….

Mr. Wrong, again

Age old tale. Boy meets girl. Boy woos girl. Boy convinces girl to sleep with him. Boy gets distant. Boy blames girl for his odd behavior. Boy eventually walks away altogether. I would ask why, but the truth is, there’s probably no real answer. Why would a man string a woman along just for one…

Giving Up

I give up on me. I am getting on my last nerve. Just being me is exhausting and overwhelming. Strong but weak Bold but unsure. Faithful but inconsistent. It’s hard. I quit. At least for today. I am Eryka.

Good Grief

I’ve spent the past three years avoiding sexual temptation, or at least trying. I don’t see or speak to the opposite sex after 10 PM. I don’t go into, nor do I bring anyone into my bedroom. I have learned how to say ‘no’ and not be hurt when the individual walks away from me….

A – Z

There are 24 letters between 'A' and 'Z' in the alphabet. Twenty four entire letters. There are millions of words that begin with letters 'B' through 'Y'. The entire vastness of God is not something we can easily comprehend. Something as trivial as letters have an extremely vital place in human life. We speak using…

Got to be real

You are so incredible. There is nothing or no one on this planet as You as You are. You are truly one of a kind. That said, act like it! I walk through the mall and other stores and I see replica after replica of some idea of what a woman is as told to…

Reminder

I'm beautiful. God did a great job on me!!! Self confidence starts with the belief that God makes no mistakes. His creation is wonderful. I am His creation. I am Eryka & I am Wonderful.

Matters of the Heart

Matters of the HeartWhat's the matter with my heart? January 13, 2017 I don't wanna love youLike youSmile when you call even when I don't try toSlip your name in conversation with folk who don't even know youSnapshot everything just so I can show youMeditate on our conversations allowing each word to marinate the Love…

35!

My parents celebrated 35 years of marriage on August 10! That said, I've come to accept that my love for marriage comes from my upbringing. They keep sticking it out. They keep going. They keep changing and becoming better, but best of all, they're doing life together. So we went to dinner. 32 of our…

Perfect LOVE triumphs over fear

God is PERFECT LOVE. That said, once He becomes everything to a person, Love begins to work in every area of the person's life. I was very afraid of snakes until I met Christ. Nothing scares me in the sense that it used to. I no longer feel like things can get me. Adults have…